change. don't like it.

At this time in my life I gotta be honest, things are pretty darn stressful! It seems like everything is going non stop and I cannot keep up. my shop at work looks like a warzone because I have so many projects and no time to clean up. every time I try to clean up or start another project I get a call and they want me to do something else. it makes it hard to get things done but that's why they hired me. I'm willing to be flexible. with every day it becomes more and more apparent that Joanne and I will not be the only humans in this house. The other night while laying on my side I could feel my baby making summersaults on my back. when she kicks you can see it visibly. It's both scary and exciting.

out of everything that's happening I've been able to find two forms of relief: Six Feet Under and heavy metal. I cannot recommend the show because the truth is it's terrible and depressing and unlike Fraiser, it fails to continuously be good from the first season to the last. I finished it tonight and although it did end well, it could've been better. now, heavy metal. Accept, Sepultura, Sammy Haggar, Europe, Yngwie Malmsteen. When I hear that fast paced guitar it's like for that moment everything's alright.  one that lifts me up in the hard times spiritually is Stryper. If you've never heard them look past the yellow and black spandex and Aqua Net and listen to one of their albums. if you don't know, they are a Christian Hair Metal band from the 1980s. most of their songs are filled with uplifting messages of religious nature. One of my favorites is a song called Holding On from their album To Hell With The Devil.  I love this part of the song "I'm holding on to the One from above
The One that's secure the one that has cured My broken heart with perfect love." Stryper has some great songs and although they're no Malmsteen but people tend to associate heavy metal with evil and death. Bands like Stryper and Petra proved that Gospel can be translated in any language. I wish Mormon musicians would try it. I've been told I need to listen to more "spiritual" music like Kenneth Kope, Hillary Weeks, etc. I keep telling people when they come up with Mormon artists that sound like Led Zepplin I might consider it.

Also, today I went into the optimologist. I'm getting glasses. I don't know what to think of it. I'm the last member of my family to get glasses. every one of them either has them or has had them. My vision's still good enough to not need to have glasses in order to drive, I just have a mild stigmatism is all. I still don't know how to feel about it. Joanne says they make me look charming.